Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Do I trust you, Lord?

I was reading in an old journal of mine this morning where I wrote the lyrics to an old Twila Paris song. They seem to come straight from my heart today. Yesterday brought some news from the hospital that attempts to steal our hope. Dr. Smith informed Dad that the stem cell procedure is on hold. The stem cell procedure is on indefinite hold. They are also talking about "maintenance" chemotherapy.

Sometimes my little heart can't understand what's in Your will, what's in Your plan.
So many times I'm tempted to ask You why?
But I can never forget it for long. Lord, what You do could not be wrong.
So I believe You, even when I must cry.

Do I trust You, Lord? Does the river flow?
Do I trust You, Lord? Does the north wind blow?
You can see my heart,You can read my mind,
And You got to know that I would rather die than to lose my faith in the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord? Do I trust You?

I know the answers, I've given them all but suddenly now, I feel so small.
Shaken down to the cavity in my soul.
I know the doctrine and theology, but right now they don't mean much to me.
This time there's only one thing I've got to know.

Do I trust You, Lord? Does the robin sing?
Do I trust You, Lord? Does it rain in spring?
You can see my heart,You can read my mind, And You got to know that I would rather die than to lose my faith in the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord? Do I trust You?

I will trust You, Lord, when I don't know why.
I will trust You, Lord, till the day I die.
I will trust You, Lord, when I'm blind with pain!
You were God before, and You'll never change.
I will trust You.
I will trust You.
I will trust You, Lord.
I will trust You.

"I the Lord do not change." -- Malachi 3:6

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