"All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly realms because we are united with Christ. Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure." - Ephesians 1:3-5
Thursday, May 15, 2014
My Submission Story
I like to be in control. To the
One time my
pastor gave a sermon on “How to live with the Control Freak in your Life”… it
ended up in my mailbox… to this day I don’t know who put it there.
probably a good word to define me. Although passionate is the word I would
choose to paint myself in a slightly better light. I think I’ve always been
events leave me filled with great anticipation or terrible dread. When
something doesn’t meet my expectations, I tend to be highly disappointed. Sadly,
everyone around me knows it too. I have a difficult time containing my
Today is the
Third Thursday of the month which means it is time for the Hearts at Home blog
Hop. I’ve been thinking all day about the topic “Love Your Story”. I wrote
about it for the past (in) RL conference a couple months ago. You can read part
of my story here. The question on my mind was “What part of my ‘story’ should I
be sharing today?”
day I posted Psalm 37:4 as my Facebook status: "Delight
yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."
For quite some time now, my husband has been a
slave to his job. Unfortunately, it has just been getting worse as time goes on.
More work. More travel. Less family. Less anything that isn’t work related. He
just met a major project deadline. Instead of receiving appreciation for his
hard work, he received more deadlines. He came home from work and informed me
of all the deadlines and demands that were being placed on him. It seemed like
there wasn’t an end in sight.
What he didn’t know was that a phone call came for
him that day from a company he had interviewed with about a year and a half
ago. We had declined their offer at the time because it would have involved a serious
pay cut. God now was laying this job in his lap. We were confident this was His
deliverance for us all the while not wanting to assume we knew God’s plans for
“Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you
the desires of your heart.” My husband just got vacation time reinstated at
work. (For almost a year, there has been no time off outside of holidays.) He
already had days scheduled for vacation when he received the call for an interview. The first day off now became
an interview day. And while we had hoped he would receive an immediate offer
and be able to quit his current high demanding job, we were thankful he had a couple days off of work.
Uncertain if a job offer would come his way, he returned to work. Meetings informed him that his bosses were not only talking about sending him
out-of-state again but out-of-the-country as
well. That’s when the job offer came through. God’s timing is always perfect.
He was offered more than we had expected with zero travel and minimal overtime.
God delivered us from a depressing situation.
When my husband resigned from his job today, he was
asked what they could do to change his mind. While it must feel wonderful to
him to have such expressions, he confidently turned them down. His desires are
lined up with God’s. It isn’t about how much money he makes or what position
they can give him. He works as a means to provide for our needs. He doesn’t
live to work. There’s a big difference and I am so grateful that God gave me
My mom commented on my Facebook post: “As we are delighting the Lord... in His Word...
in His Truth... in His Way... His desire becomes the desire of our hearts.”
Tonight it settled into my heart how very much this has become my story.
A year and
a half ago, when my husband was offered a low ball position with his soon-to-be
employer, I discouraged him from taking the job. I was unwilling to submit to
his decision. I couldn’t see how we could keep our current standard of living
if he took such a substantial reduction in income. I was unwilling to trust my
husband. More than that, I was unwilling to trust God. I’ve wondered ever since
if we would have avoided this stress if I had just submit to my husband.
recently, I cried to my friend. “I’m willing to take whatever kind of pay cut
necessary to have him home again. I hate seeing him so consumed with work. He’s
miserable and we aren’t able to fully live the way we want.” Money all of a
sudden wasn’t so important to me. Work had become the chains he wore and they
had imprisoned our entire family. I couldn’t shake the feeling that it was my
fault. And yet God softened my heart and allowed me to learn through the pain.
past week, my husband had a large tree in our backyard cut down. It’s been a
burden on his heart to have it taken down for years now. I’ve resisted because
it was a beautiful fully grown tree that hid a giant utility pole in our yard.
Now there is only an eye sore.
to him that I knew the tree had to come down. I was just highly disappointed.
He was grateful for the reassurance that I trusted his decision.
When I took
my daughter to the bus stop later that morning, the neighbor at the end of the
street had a full grown tree split in two that had fallen into the street. My
girls asked me why the tree broke. I informed them that it broke for the same
reason their Daddy wanted our tree taken down. It was just another clear message
from God that I can trust the rules He puts on my life. I can trust my husband’s
is seeing the movie “Irreplaceable” tonight with a friend. The only reason he
could agree to go was because this new job came through. Otherwise he would be
working long hours once again tonight as he has been for a very long season. My
husband is a gift from God.
desires are not for the best. How many times will this lesson have to repeat
itself? I always think I know best. I hope God will remind me of this story the
next time I think it’s my way or the highway.
“Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you
the desires of your heart.” This doesn’t mean that He will grant us our every
wish as though He is our magic genie. It means that He will align our desires
to match His desires. We will be able to clearly see His active presence in our
I've never been one to be very good at submitting to my husband. It feels good to be in control and I have some apparent trust issues. It’s taking time and I know I still have much
more to learn... but I think I can say that I’m finally willing to give the pen
over to God and let Him write His story on my heart.
His plans are always best.
(Head over to Jill's blog to see what other women have to say on loving their stories.)